I havr this minor thing. Not a problem or predicament or somethin like that. Just a thing.
I like to go places and being with friends and bein invited places. Truly.
But theres stuff that stops suvh things.
I dont like havin to travel far as in more than 15minutes. The brain and physical power to move myself and then drive is quite a bit of energy. Its why commuting kinda sucks.
I also tend to have work or family matters or school when people finally do invite me out. And then as well, when Im not held up and have the power and energy to go far-everyone wants me at the same time.
Im not complaining. Its not a problem. Its jus a thing. It happens and jus oh well, uknow.
So when I get word or stalk social networks and see friends out and about (or at home with other friends chillin) and Im home bein a hobo-couch jumper- I feel kinda jealous. For about a minute or so. Then I get over shrug and say well it happens and whatever.
But uknow, its a thing.
Also when I do finally hang with friends it always seems like Ill only do it if theres some incentive. Drinking. Smoking. Goin out to eat. But I promise its not like that. It jus happens that way.
That grand design-cosmic something rather blahblahblah.
So I watched Dances with Wolves (still am actually) and its pretty cool.
Im kinda bein lazy and also feeling so. Gdhwhsmlanshducn
I want a tattoo.
I have lots of homework due by Tuesday.
Work gave me no hours-good and bad cayse busy but also now no cash.
If I had someone to talk about the crazy outta normal thoughts I have…theres no ending to this.
But I dont put out so I dont get back. Thats the way these things work. Im jus bad at taking risks. Probably outta fear. Probably because I dont think some are worth it. Maybe cause I talk with ppl find their interests-stalk them enough-and find we only have a few same likes. Then I take what I can get. And jus move on.